Eternity

A family member of friends recently died.  He was unsaved and that has made the grief that much more intense.  I sat and thought\grieved for the man who did not know God as his savior and the punishment he is enduring.  As I thought about it, I grew angry that he would have to endure that for eternity.  I felt good that I would not face such a future.  I felt almost proud that I did not deserve eternal punishment.  That is when I stopped. cold.  I DO derserve that future.  I am no less of a sinner than he was.  The only reason my future is any better is because of Jesus.  Life in heaven is NOT what I deserve.  It occurred to me, how comfortable I am with the idea of my salvation--to the point of entitlement.  It devestated my heart to realize this.  I am a church brat.  It was humbling to have a little heart check and refreshing to experience heartfelt thankfulness for the gift of my salvation.