Luke 7:36-43

 “A certain moneylender had two debtors. One owed five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. When they could not pay, he cancelled the debt of both. Now which of them will love him more?” Simon answered, “The one, I suppose, for whom he cancelled the larger debt.” And he said to him, “You have judged rightly.”
(Luke 7:41-43 ESV)

First, I enjoy the fact that the Pharisee was talking to HIMSELF when Jesus answered him.  Perhaps, I should be more attentive to what I mutter to myself. :) 

I have thought about these verses for several hours this morning.  I understand the passage, but didn't feel like writing about it.  I decided to just get it over with and now I know what I really want to say and how to say it.  We, that is I, don't get the weight of our my sin.  Even in that sentence, I try to defer some of the responsibility of this.  As much as I want to be the woman worshipping Jesus, I am typically the Pharisee judging from the corner.  I keep my words to myself, but that doesn't matter because the words are in my heart.  Recently, a friend's grandpa died.  The man was not saved and the whole family reeled at the reality of his eternal destination.  It was the first time that I had stopped to consider such a thing.  I usually dismiss icky thoughts like that because I don't like to deal with them.  As I thought about it, it made me angry that the man would have to suffer for eternity.  That wasn't comfortable, so I thought about how thankful I am that I don't deserve that.  Then it really hit me.  I do.  Now I think about my grumbling attitude this morning.  I am frustrated with my kids and my life and a handful of other things that rub me the wrong way.  I realized as I sat to write this how selfish I am being.  I do not have a heart of service or thankfulness, let alone worship.